Random thoughts on God's grace...

The latest thing I have been meditating on has been pretty intense. Paul's experience with "God's Grace" when Paul asked God to take the torn out of his side God replied " my grace is suffusion enough". That is pretty intense and most likely not what he wanted to hear. But true. If Paul didn't have the torn in his side, He would have leaned on his own understanding and not God's. It got me thinking about how I would feel if God said no, about going to a DTS. It would break my heart for a moment but if I really want to understand his grace I will need to ask myself "Why no". Because he know. He always knows exactly what I need. The biggest part about understanding His grace is...He saved me that should, and is enough.

"The plane come, praise God.
The plane don't come, praise God".
-famous quote form an Iland'er

I also love the other part of the book I am reading said.

"Why doesn't God make you more like him? He is. He's just not finished yet. Until he is, his grace is sufficient to overcome your flaws. The power is in the message, not the messenger."
- Book: In the Grip of Grace

I have looked my hole life from a sense of self in others. Looking for exceptions, worth, congratulations, affection and love. The only reason was, I didn't think I could hear it directly from him. I am being patient and now, I am trying to ask for those thinks from him when I feel I need them.